Pursuit of Happiness

Welp. I have so much going on through my head right now I feel like its going to shortly explode. I can never tell when I’m truly happy anymore or to be quite frank I’m not too sure I even know what it means to be happy. When I think one thing is going my way it just seems to take a turn for the worse. Ya know not too long ago I was reminded having a big heart isn’t a weakness it’s a great quality to have and for a split second I believed it…now not so much. Having a big heart is single handily crushing every little thing about me. I used to know who I was and over the past six months, I’ve lost it. I’ve lost sight of who I am and who I want to be. My problem is I tend to care for others before myself, and I need to start putting myself first and find whatever “happiness” I am looking for. My love for some people is what’s killing me. I’m not saying loving someone is bad for you because it’s not. One of the greatest feelings in the world would have to be love. There’s simply no other feeling like it. What I’m saying is, you only have so much to give until you’re exhausted of always giving and want to receive it to the full extremities that you’re giving. The phrase “I love you” gets dropped way too freely these days. As far as relationships go when I tell someone I love them, I mean it in every aspect possible.. I love who you are, I love what you do, I love the time we spend together, leading to me being in love with you. If I’m in a relationship that word will not come out of my mouth unless I truly 110% mean I am in love. Love is a strength and can also be a weakness. It can make you the happiest person on this Earth or it can destroy every little thing about you that makes you, you. What’s my whole point in this blog? I have no idea perhaps just to talk to myself and to get my thoughts out there. Who the fuck knows anymore.

if i ever step up from piercing to tattooing my face will be done. 

if i ever step up from piercing to tattooing my face will be done. 

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hahaha died.

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seriously love in LOVE with him. 

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hahahah OBSESSED. 

hahahah OBSESSED. 

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aint that the truth.

aint that the truth.

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she’s old, tattooed, and PERFECT.